Reasons why

Today is me and my boyfriends 10 months spent together yay!! It's not 10 years or even a year yet but I thought it was an even number TWO whole hands! Feeling as though it was necessary to blog about it. When I asked him what I should write my next blog about he answered: "Write about how much you love me". Lol So I agreed. To some this may be overly cheesy and affectionate but it expresses the best way in words how much I appreciate and love my man.

This is titled "Reasons Why I Love You"

1. I love you because you make me feel So special amongst a crowd of people.
I remember our first date when I asked you to come to belleza latina with me as my date. You made me feel so special because there were so many beautiful Spanish girls competing to win but your eyes were in my direction only looking into mine throughout the whole night. That was the night when you said you loved me & since that night I've been falling deeper and deeper in love with you as well.

2. You hold me in your arms tightly when I'm feeling low and tell me everything is going to be alright.
Before we started living together I remember when you used to come over to my house everyday during the summer. You used to wake up early in the mornings and take the bus to my house then walk up the hill even if it was really hot out. I tried to make myself as beautiful as possible for you. & I used to anticipate the moment you would walk into my bedroom after a long walk up the hill. You were usually really sweaty so I would wipe you off with a cold towel. I held you in my arms and talk about everything that was on our mind. Sometimes we wouldn't even talk I enjoy your company so much. You quickly became my best friend and the most trusted person in my life. I would tell you everything & you opened up to me and did the same.

3. Your presence is a heavenly essence.
Remember the time we went to williams together? I was hanging out with Isabel before I met with you and I was telling her how nervous I was to hang out with you - Reason why I "ditched" you three times before we actually hung out with one another was because I was scared. I was so happy but nervous to see you. I thought you were So Special. Your smile made my heart melt and I wanted to be close to you. We met up at williams and I remember how quiet the whole date was. At first I honestly thought that you were not interested in me anymore because you weren't talking to me and you seemed bored. So I tried talking to You as much as possible and it worked. We then went to your car because you were going to drive me home and you showed me this mandala you made because I made one you thought it was cool to make one for me. I loved your art and I was so happy that you were artistic. We arrived at my house and talked for a bit, I introduced you to my family and before you left I had the idea that I wanted to kiss you. I was so shy my heart was pounding but I had enough courage to go in for the kiss before you left me. I said "Are you forgetting something?" & you kissed me back. I was SO happy that day.

4. The Love letter you wrote.
You wrote me a letter expressing how you felt about me and now that I think back on our memories you were so romantic with me. My heart melted when you read me that letter because I remember you cried for me. I knew then that this Love was serious.

5. When I realized I loved you.
I realized I couldn't be without you. When school started I went to your house everyday after school and thought about you during classes. I wanted to see you everyday and my wish came true because now we live together and it has been 10 months. I Love you because you accept me for who I am & who I'm not. You help me figure me out a little better and you keep me moving. I know your hard on me sometimes but your my motivation!

Within ten months we know eachother and I pray baby that our love will not fade away. Now I know you completely and you are a part of my life and I still feel the same for you. When I think of my future I think of you in it also. What I do also revolves around you.

6. & When it rains it pours, we have our ups and downs. We Fight we break up to make up and that is all it really ever is.

7. I Love you with all my heart and I'm proud of being with such a man with qualities I have always wished to posess.

8. Your the positive part of my day. You are ambitious and intellectual. You like to talk about philosophies with me. You are loving, caring, accepting.

9. I Love you cause you are the Truth - Said he is so real & I love the way that you make me feel & If I am a reflection of him. Then I must be fly because his light it shines so Bright I wouldn't lie. No.

Love Morgan

Dreams

I am in love with Moroccan inspired design! It is so natural and the ambiance is magical, peaceful and irresistible. I think in this surrounding I can easily listen carefully to the melodies Sade and practice on breathing and serenity. It's an area to dream and to let go of everything. Just to be.
I am inspired by the neutral colours with the red, orange, and golds.
Absolutely love this design.

ALSO
Not so Moroccan but I also enjoy the modern side of things. The white is fresh and the bold colours really define this room. I love the shape of the windows.Stunning bedroom designs. Tranquility at it's best. Especially the last one Love decorates the bedroom. I like the curtains falling down at the side of the bed very romantic.
Imagine this balcony right outside the doors of your apartment villa. So precious. I love this because it is so fresh and brings serenity into the air. I could easily pull up a chair and read from finish to end a long book on a day like this, sipping on something fruity. Love it!

Romantico

These premature orchids are absolutely beautiful! There is no doubt that these orchids are the most exotic looking flower ever! My cousin is using these flowers in her upcoming wedding, May 1st that I just so happen to be a part of. Not the pink but she is using the stunning blueish purpley!
My first wedding as a bridesmaid is pretty exciting! I wish her and her fiance all the best after all they have been through together.

I was contemplating today on the relationship I am involved in and tomorrow will be our ten month anniversary. Not a huge biggie compared to those who have been involved in a relationship for ten+ years but I'd like to say it's important to me.
Sometimes I think of what it will be like to get married. I feel like I still have a lot of soul searching to do within myself before I can love someone else to the full out extent. Watching Zorro today just made me fall deeper in love with the idea of Love. Ahhhhhhh ♥
Hopeless Romantic

Dear April 16, 2010

Today I will think with my heart and not with my mind. I will ignore all negative thoughts & push them out of my brain to focus on listening to my soul speaking through me. Everything that I think with my thoughts are usually wrong anyways. So let's try thinking with the heart. Take some time to let my feelings show. And by the way Thank you God for creating me and always keeping me protected. I ask you to help me with this process to change myself internally. I ask you to be there with me through it. to speak to me through my soul. Today will be a good day.
I will be my own Best Friend.
I will be loving towards myself.

Light Some Incense...

So there has been a lot of controversy about Erykah Badu's new video "Window Seat" where she strips down completely NAKED for the whole world to see. The video begins with her walking on the sidewalk fully dressed but to everyone’s surprise throughout the duration of the video she begins to strip. The video was shot in her hometown in Dallas, Texas and the video ends with the singer being shot in the plaza at the exact same location of President John F. Kennedy’s 1963 assassination.

When watching this I was a little intrigued by what her motive was behind shooting a video such as this. To me I trust that Badu wouldn't have done this if there wasn't a creative motive behind it. I found it was harmless, imaginative and clever. Now if we took a look at the reoccurring stripping in most videos where women like Gaga, Beyonce and Nicki Minaj are shaking their asses and hinting at the most indecent messages, we could all say Badu's portray would be an act of mere innocence. I'm so sick of Gaga & Beyonce especially the video "Telephone" it’s not a bad song but the video is way to graphic for me. To those who haven’t watched it they both act out the most distorted messed up evil message I've ever viewed on television. Exactly what kind of music are they providing for the people in this generation? Are we trying to make the youth crazy? I'm SO inclined to shut off the t.v. immediately when anything of Gaga's comes on she gives me the creeps!

Anyways Badu has been one of my most admired artists ever since I was introduced to her music. I love the woman! I feel this was a very powerful statement for not only black women but women in general. There's something really eerie about the end where she is shot and drops instantly naked on the ground as the blue cartooned blood is released that spells out, GROUP THINK. I think this was the moment where she tried to aware the viewer of the mishaps of the world. Badu's statement was to make people think deeper about our existence. Many people hide themselves behind an artificial image because they think that if you release the naked truth about yourself you will be shot down. To some this video may be a hit or miss depending on how you think about it, you either Love it or you Hate it. Some however believe she did it for attention for her new album New Amerykah Part. 2: Return Of The Ankh. It's somewhat sad that our society couldn't get a clue if it was handed to them. Personally I believe her music sells itself, and other Badu followers would say the same. As Badu puts it, "I liberate the minds, then I go on home."

At the end of the video Badu explains the GROUP THINK theory:

"They play it safe. Are quick to assassinate what they do not understand. They move in packs. Ingesting more and more fear with every act of hate on one another. They feel most comfortable in groups. Less guilt to swollow. They are us. This is what we have become. Afraid to respect the individual. A single person within a circumstance can move one to change. To love one herself. To evolve."